It’s causing a few tensions and I am more irritable. It was better when there was no computer – having a tool here that I need but can’t use is irritating to no end. Not to mention the mind-numbingly boring and mundane task of listing our losses, sourcing the items, checking and double checking costs. What a total drag. I must be in the final Stage of Loss: Resignation. But it also feels like I’m going back to the very beginning: numbness.